Genuine Lovers

a touch of a hand of love
that feeling that can't be explained
intertwined at first sight
for only their feet walk their path of love...
to soft kisses on a cheek feeling like a cool ocean breeze
the serenity of a voice that speaks just before you begin to weep
the lips that speak only the truth
into an ear that is waiting to listen
for love to knock...
on a heart that is waiting to beat
and a soul that is waiting to feel
irreplaceable moments of peace...joy...happiness
staring into sparkling eyes of honesty
that remarkably feels your pain
who's mind thinks constantly
of that one being...faithful
is how it is suppose to be...
yet will it be...she or he...both
is how it should be...eternity
is what is expected in unity...us..we..
genuine lovers

heart vs mind vs soul

is this my heart speaking,
or is it my soul that leads me,
or is it my mind that is undecided...
my heart is ready for love so is it in a rush...
or is it my soul that is crying out for someone...
or maybe because my mind is thinking all of the time...
yet i am willing to wait for that YOU
for that one who accepts me for me
and i accept he for he,
yet my heart....or wait...my soul...or no...it's my mind
that makes me think so hard til I get lost
in this mass of confusion that breaks my...
my soul...no wait thats wrong....breaks my heart,
which is beating continuously searching like a radar to find YOU,
yet it finds...well nevermind...just know it's not YOU...
then comes my heart or wait my soul,
tries to reach deep down inside to find if you're "mr. right" inside of "mr. wrong"
hmph....or "mr. wrong" inside of "mr. right"
all because this heart of mine is pacing
and this mind is racing
yet my soul is steadily awaiting for YOU
but i find myself in the wrong direction...wrong connection...
so i'm back to this heart vs mind vs soul thing again..
because my heart...no my mind...or is it my soul
that is confused...
which is which...how do I decipher between the them while in the midst,
of love until my mind begins to think,
and heart begins to search again...
yet my soul is the only one that leads me to YOU...
but for some reason I am in this fight,
this fight between my heart.mind.soul...
when I know only my soul will steer me right...to YOU

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how does your heart beat

i think you should let me inside of you
i want to feel how your heart beats
see you've been inside of me
deep within my body to where i can't speak
i can only stare, inhale and exhale
and finally a sound speaks
as you're slowly stroking me
i vulnerably let you take over my body
as your lips kiss me softly around my body
my spine grows weak
because you're pleasing so passionately
then suddenly i realize i'm not sure how your hear beats
for you it is easy to see
yet for me i can hardly see
so as you sleep i place my hand on your chest
hoping to feel a few beats
while your eyes are closed and you don't notice
because you keep hiding this feeling from me
then suddenly i realize that i shouldn't have to guess
how your heart beats for me
so i leave....

Materialistic...

I'm sitting wondering why some people are materialistic. It is hard for me to comprehend because my mother did not raise me to care about the name of what i was wearing but to appreciate that i had it! There are many things in this life that i wouldn't mind having BUT refuse to pay some of the prices for them just because of the name being Coach, Gucci, Prada, Fendi, and etc. I personally think that some of those items are ugly! lol! I find it crazy that some people brag that they have Prada this and Coach that. I'm not too big on these obviously but i'm not knocking people who wear brand names but there are so many cute or nice things that do not have a name on them that people won't buy because it is not brand named...Is it really that important to some people to spend their entire check on something name brand? Yet i guess it is to each it's own...right?

On a mission...

so i'm working on this business plan...it is a bit frustrating but it is something that i want to do. You never know how hard it is to act spell out your ideas until you start writing them out. You have to be as detailed as possible...

Then I've been writing a few songs the past few days...it's just flowing so that it's hard to put the pen down yet I have so many things I'm doing at one time! I love music and singing it soothes the soul that is why i have a treble clef tattooed on my upper shoulder...i'm looking for a studio so if you know of anyone in st. louis, please let me know! I JUST WANNA SING! It took me to hit almost 25 to use my talent for something but hey it's never to late!

fighting a teardrop

it hurts the most when you're trying to hold back a tear from falling...
it's harder than trying to ride a bicycle for the first time...
it takes so much strength and courage that it makes ur stomach begin to toss and turn because of "butterflies"..
you can feel that moisture in your eye forming in to a river
thats blocked by a dam trying to find a crevice to slide thru...
(sigh)it...just...hurts...
your head begins to hurts from fighting against your mind not to let it out this time
and your stomach begins to ache...more than it was before....
so it's hard to decide if you should let it fall or hide...
in your mind u believe it will be a waste of time...
yet at the moment it fits the time...
staring in the mirror trying to decide only makes the river begin to flow...
yet laying on your pillow only makes it worse...
so you begin to distract yourself with anything that comes in sight...
unfortunately those distractions don't stay long...
regardless of how you fight...
no matter how much courage you build...
despite your strength...
eventually your teardrop will begin to flow....

step into the light

as i was driving home from work, i noticed that when i looked behind me it was complete darkness, it was almost scary until i realized that i didn't really need to see behind me because i was moving forward not backwards, that is why my head lights shined brightly in front of me. this made me think about life, we unfortunately look behind us and try to take those things in the past into our future yet the past is the past, there is no light there for you to see what you are taking with you, so you grab the wrong thing and end up in a bigger mess than you were in the first time.
the darkness is what we don't need in our lives, when you see the light shining in front of you, you should follow it, it being your dreams, your thoughts and maybe even your fairytales.
on my way out the door the security guard told me that the roads were really bad and you couldn't see anything because of the fog and the cold was making the roads slick. instantly i became nervous about driving home, yet when i started driving i could see just fine nor did i slide because of the roads being slick. again i realized that i had this light ahead of me that was guiding my way, so if the road turned i could see it turning, if there was something in the middle of the road, i could see it...just because someone tells you their opinion on something does not mean it will be the same for you. take that risk, gain the experience, learn something dare to be different because you don't know what that person lacks nor their strengths in the situation...like nike just do it!!!

hold fast to your dreams, follow the light ahead of you, let it guide you and don't look back...

sagging...or whatever u fools call it...

I find it hysterical that this old man had to get on national television to get his point across! This let's you know how foolish you all look by "sagging" because just as foolish as he sounds and looks...unfortunately you look like that times 2 two! It's really not that cute and I've personally never liked it because you are constantly holding the middle of your pants to keep your pants from falling on the ground. Then on top of that I hate it when you're wearing a belt but yet the belts purpose is pointless because guess what...you're steady grabbing your pants to keep them up! Hey idiot, buy pants that fit around your waist that are long enough to wear them on your waist where they were maid to be worn! Oh and I can not stand this skinny jeans sagging...sir why are your jeans tighter than mine but I can still see your boxers/briefs/gym shorts and whatever else you have on under there! Come on seriously you wonder why you get all the no good woman, honey look in the mirror (the full body one) and then you'll understand why! JUST WEAR YOUR PANTS ABOVE YOUR BUTT BRUH IT'S NOT THAT BAD REALLY!

Liar, Liar...

May I ask what is the point in lying? When I was a child it made so much since but now that I am an adult, I feel it is a waste of my time. Lies always come to light even when the person is not looking for it to come to light. When you lie it stays on your heart from the time those words that are forming the lie come out of ur mouth! Do people not realize that? I can't lie well at all and I believe it is because I have a big heart, in which it makes me feel so bad for lying to a person when I could have just told them the truth. No matter how much the truth may hurt a person, it hurts ten times worse when they are lied to. In any type of relationship, rather it be a friendship, love relationship, family relationship, work relationship, you can mess that relationship up for simply not being real! I feel that when a person continuously lies they don't know how to be real to themselves or anyone else, therefore I do not need them in my life.

Lies often come from trust issues, if you can not trust a person 100% then you do not trust them at all! In many relationships there is a trust issue with each others money. I believe that is foolish because if you are ONE then how can you not trust your other half with your financial standings. It is odd to me that many marriages each partner has so many separate accounts. I can understand one account but 3 or 4 that the other does not know of means that you are hiding something, meaning you are lying about something in your relationship!

Liar, Liar
why must you lie,
if you loved me so
you be real to me
not fake to me
nor deceiving me
or betraying me
you would love me
cherish me
trust me
and depend on me
when you need me
but how can i trust you
depend on you
and or love you
when i see is
Liar, Liar
staring at me...


liar, Liar

Love...Reach

We say love the unlovable
But it’s hard when they don’t love
Yet we say everybody wants to be loved by somebody…
Reach the unreachable
Even though they won’t take your hand
Yet they want help…
We say the sky is the limit
When it seems the mountains hold you back
Bringing you tears, heart ache and pain
And it always seems like the same game…different name
Yet you fall for it…or should I say in it…
A hole of sorrow and tears…
Misery and fears…Joy and happiness…
This is the definition of how life should be
Or is this the life we chose to live
But how do you choose…
When you think your way of life is right
Or your method of thinking is the ethically and morally correct
Yet your life is not right…
Seems confusing…mass confusion is what your mind is full of
Yet you won’t love…nor reach out…

-C.Martin

at work but not working

I'm trying to figure out, why do people like jobs where they are doing absolutely NOTHING? I hate jobs where I am doing nothing because it makes me feel like I've accomplished NOTHING! I like to go to work and know that I have contributed to achieving a goal for the day even if it is my own personal goal. People now days are just lazy, "might as well sit there and get paid for nothing" NO! give me some work that is what I came here for, make me earn my pay check. In other countries adults, teenagers and even young children do a variety of work for up to 12 hours a day! They strive to receive a decent pay check to survive and take care of their families yet us in the U.S. we like to apply for the easy jobs! Not Carrie! I need to move around, stay busy and actually be tired from working not tired from sitting in silence and out of boredom! So my question is why so we want jobs where we are just sitting in one place, taking the easy way out, instead of actually doing WORK AT WORK?